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Mace..is the name, [dancing sets me free], Hebrews 10:36, my life is like a movie[a comedy], i love making new friends.., but the ones i have are totally priceless♥ , i am so clumbsy ..just call me murphy.. [or bella♥], i play daily, [I ♥ Jesus..& the gospel is the center of my life], whats meant to be.. will always find its way , I'd rather be at the beach.., I love playing in the rain so much, texas born and raised.., im a country girl at heart.period.,
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Thursday, February 19, 2009

My super hero


I remember it like it was yesterday; Thirty thousand feet up in the air, flying doesn’t scar me, I enjoy it. Maybe out of habit, or some obsessive compulsive thing, I always, without fail drink a tomato juice in the air. With ice that has holes in it. (The kind you can only find on an airplane) People around me are on there way to see family for thanksgiving, and technically that’s what I am doing. I just have another purpose in mind. I have never faced death, at least in my immediate family, and I was nervous; because that is what I was on my way to Reno to do, to say good bye to a loved one.
Curtis Alden Chase is his name, he is my grandpa. Not biologically, but for my whole life none the less. He is a crabby old man to the naked eye, but when looked at more closely, you begin to see the wonderful things that make him who he is, a tender, loving man, with a sarcastic, cynical shell. This shell that evidently takes a long time to crack! Curtis was then a tender old man, now, who still wore his pants at a un fashionable height, to his belly button. The pictures on the wall behind him show a younger Grandpa, tall dark and handsome, its clear to see how my grandma fell for him all those years ago.
It is so ironic how as kids you see what you want to see. “Grandpa is my grandpa, nothing else.” But over the years, I have discovered a lot about Curtis Chase that I did not know. He has always been a genius with computers, built them, worked for a major software company, creating software, he amazed me. Growing up in a different time in a little Texas town, Curtis saw the world in a different way then my generation did. Feelings were not something that were to be discussed. Work was the essence of life, the meaning of it, and he had a job to do. He was taught, whether by accident or on purpose I do not know, to take the world literally. So literally, that, to some people, he came off as bitter. Not to me though. I always saw him as a teddy bear. I remember back to my fifth grade year in school, I was a theater kid, always in a play. Grandpa was gracious enough to drive me thirty minutes every day to play practice, in his rusty old bronco. One of the times that sticks out most in my mind, was our disagreements on music. Curtis was not a man of many words, so therefore, he enjoyed the silence. I however, could not ever be quiet and insisted on some sort of radio being played on our long daily trips. At first, AM stations were all that came out of that dusty un-used stereo. (To this day, I can listen to talk radio politics, and be entertained) Slowly, the dial changed to country music, and after a while, I had the conservative Curtis Chase listening to top forty, and liking it! One night, after my play, Grandpa, my mom, grandma, and I went out to dinner, and one of those now old school tunes came on over head. I will never forget the next thing I heard! MY grandpa turned to me and said, “Oh, I s this real Slim Shady?” He knew Eminem; my fifth grade mission was accomplished.
Flash back to the present, and I am sitting with him, he is clearly fading fast, talking about his favorite memories. With a little persuasion, he agrees to let me rub his swollen feet. He told me stories of rough housing with his brother and he, and again, like a child, I’m reminded that grandpa was also little once. Like me, he went to college to get an education. At this time, the United States was in the Cold War, trying to beat Russia in every technological way possible, therefore, my grandpa, who was an amazingly gifted programmer, received a government grant from the President himself to attend all eight years of college at a well known Florida university. Hearing this story is literally awesome to me. My grandpa helped win the Cold WAR! Some while later, he met my grandma, Joyce Valera. An eccentric, creative, a tune person, my grandma is the exact opposite of grandpa, and it showed all the time. Watching their marriage as a growing child I found there arguments confusing, but I took comfort in the fact that I knew they loved each other. They loved each other, and that’s all I needed to know. He recalls his favorite memory, on a date with my grandma, at a Willey Nelson Concert, and “everyone was smoking marijuana! It was great!”
I was over whelmed with tears as I realized it was time to say goodbye, I had to catch my flight home, and I f the doctors predicted correctly, he would be gone in a few days. I traced his hand, so I could always hold it, and he wrote me a note, that was almost non legible. My grandpa, a man of few words, told me for the very first time out loud, that he loved me too. I hate goodbyes, so to avoid this, instead I told him, I’ll be seeing you, and I know that’s true. I smile as I think of what he’d say if he saw me being all emotional and professing how fantastic he is. He would say, “Maci, calm down, I lived my life, and did my job no big deal.” Nope, not to me grandpa, to me, you’re a super hero, “Always and forever.”

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Just a Reminder

A very sweet person sent this to me..to say it was exactly what i needed to hear would be an understatement. thankyou for the reminder lala. i love you.

"I want you to be proud you are a child of God. I want you to feel the reality of what that means, to know who you truly are. You are literally a Heavenly child of Heavenly parents with a divine nature and an eternal destiny. That surpassing truth should be fixed deep in your soul and be fundamental to every decision you make as you grow in to maturity. there could never be a great authentication of your dignity, your worth, your priveleges, and your promise. Your Father in Heaven knows your name and knows your circumstance. He hears your prayers. He knows your hopes and dreams, including your fears and frustrations. And he knows what you can become through faith in Him. Because of this divine heritage, you, along with all of your spiritual sisters and brothers, have full equality in His sight and are empowered through obedience to become a rightful heir in His eternal Kingdom. Seek to comprehend the significance of these doctrines. You are "a sanctified investiture which none shall dare profane." Prophet Joseph said more than 150 years ago: "If you live up to your priveleges, the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates." If for a time any of you are less visionary than this or seem bent on living beneath your privilege, then we express even greater love for you and plead with you to make your teenage years a triump, not a tragedy. Fathers and Mothers, prophets and apostles have no motive except to bless your life and to spare you every possible heartache we can spare you. Our standards are not socially negotiable."-Elder Jeffrey R.Holland

Monday, November 24, 2008

(yup you guessed) TWILIGHT.

SO...on thursday night i went to see my dreams come true..in the form of a movie. twice. not only was it all i expected..but twilight also grossed more money in two days than any movie. EVER. i am expecting to go see it again with my best friend..cough cough ..andi thats you.. cough.

..to everyone who thinks they'll never find their edward..you will. or rather..he'll find you. just be patient..and enjoy life. twilight prom Pictures, Images and Photos and beleive in magic..and eternity.

Monday, November 3, 2008

The Bow and Arrow...Tender mercies in life



Day in and day out i continue to be amazed by her. one night in particular we had a fantasti, tearful conversation that shook my soul. "our hearts are houses..and one of my bedrooms in my heart's house is empty. all thats left is his memory..a bow and arrow..that reminds me of him, always." What a powerful statement. how true is it that heavenly Father gives us these bows and arrows, these tender mercies to make it a little less painful, so endure. I had the opprotunity to go to the temple the other night, what a tender mercy! when all else fails, and nothing makes sense, turn to the Lord. He is there. With peace and love i realize i have the worlds best friend..and the gospel is fantastic. In church, Love letters from Joesph to Emma Smith showed me something powerful about life yesterday..pateince works. Love will happen..my teacher says we will get married. hahah. i love sundays.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

CeeCee..a sister from the heart


There is times in your life when you meet someone Heavenly Father intended you to meet. To help you grow, or learn, to lean on, to love. I met this wonderful woman in an unsuspected place. Texas Roadhouse. I wasn't expecting to find another best friend, i figured people weren't that lucky, since i already had a lot of wonderful people in my life...bam..steph..my family..etc. But there she was, and we clicked instantly. I look up to her. I admire her in so many ways. Of course, since my mom and i are the same, my mom loves her too, and actually said we were adopted her. not it the literal sense..but still :). So there i was, discovering myself with my long lost second sister. One day, she'll be there when i get married, she'll be in the temple with me, and we'll expierence that together. She's a mother, a supporter of her family, and a fantastic wife and friend. I know, and have faith in her potential, her strength. i believe in her,i believe in the spirit, and the effects it has, she shows me those effects every single day. Love you Cee..always..and forever.


Rejection..psh thats nothing



So this was my day..Go to jiffy lube..get car emissions done. (by the way im incredibily thankful to even have a car). Then to work, to plan fundraiser.. to raise money for breast cancer awareness. Well..this picture might describe how it went. But its okay! Sometimes, life trys to reject you, but overcome it! the great thing about rejection, or failure, is you get an opprotunity to try again! To succeed! So here i go to another day..ready to face another challenege, to prove to the world that i will overcome! (and get two new tires. :)

Monday, October 27, 2008





"I am leaving this place now, letting go of all my fears, saying good-bye to the memories I hold dear




I can finally breath again, its a new day fair well past, as I close this chapter I set free at last




Every step I take is new, I found courage to go on, though its rough sometime I still have to be strong




I may have to walk alone, but the One who lives inside, me is always there to comfort and to guide




I can see the sun breaking through the clouds, lifting my hands cause I'm all right now




I can shout about it, I can laugh about it, I can talk about it
I made up my mind
theres no turning back
the past is behind me
theres no looking back
I'm looking forward not behind
I've made a desicion
I give you my life"
there are many times a day i realize that Heavenly Father Exsists. and loves me. And Jesus Christ is our Savior of the world.
I'm so so thankful to have this gospel in my life. Its true. Read the Book Of Mormon. I want everyone to feel this peace, this "ultimate euphoria" i have the opprotunity to feel.


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